Your words have me holding my breath. It's an archaic response to feelings too heavy to breathe in. Am reading a lot about football players and brain injury, and my heart is already broken, considering the fragility of the brain, the fragility of our connection to those we love, and how aberrant behavior, not able to be controlled or "managed" pushes away the people we care about, who care about us, but are confused and hurt and... I wish I could do something to be helpful. The brain is a marvelous blessing. And when it's on the fritz, our worst enemy. Hugs to you ~